And find yourself believing the dreams you had and not the reality? All of us will wake up after sleeping or napping and find ourselves half-dead. Occassionally, the feeling of drowsiness is not the lack of movement or sleep. Sometimes it's a dreamlike state, and you can't help but think that everything looks surreal. Perhaps the stress has finally gotten to me last night.

I was just playing a video game and I have a typical angry reaction that I died... numerously. So before I would destroy my controllers, I turn off everything, and pace. I have always had a habit of pacing and slipping into a fantasy, sometimes I even listen to music while I'm doing it, which causes me to make up music videos in my head. Anyway, I fid myself so angry with not just the video game, but with my mother as well. I had been looking for possible places to live in case we're successfully kicked out of this place. I looked up places in Burlington, Welland, and Oshawa. All places where I know at least someone. I was thinking of Huntsville, but the available places were too expensive. Plus I don't really know anyone there anymore.

I know for a fact that my mom will not lift a finger till the last minute, as we have gotten an eviction notice on Thursday. So we have two weeks to come up with $2715, plus another 900 when the next month comes up. My paycheque was less this week and...I would have to say that was a little distressing. But when I woke up...I suddenly didn't care anymore. Not about my life, mind you, I just didn't care about the rent, or this damn place. It sucks anyway and there are cheaper places. I'm just starting to really wake up though, so maybe I'll change my mind about not caring.